Goetic Prayers (Work in Progress)

October 28 - November 1.

"Lord Glasya-Labolas, I honor Thee this day. Lend your presence and your grace to my life and take from me these humble offerings I lay aside in acknowledgment of your greatness. Bless me that I may know and cherish love in my life. Bless me that I may value those whom are deserving of my kindness and to repay them with kindness in turn. Bless me that I may see the unseen, that all shall reveal itself to me that I may throw aside the yoke of ignorance. Bless me that my enemies shall know and fear me. Bless me that those who have wronged me shall wail in their misery, that all injustice which has come to pass may be but evermore anchored in the past and that retribution may be swift and absolute. Bless me that all which has pained me shall diminish into nothingness and that all which has stifled me and all which has burdened me may fall by the wayside and that I may be renewed. Bless me that the fabrics of my woes shall be forever shed. Bless me that I shall ever strive to journey onwards and forwards. Hail, Lord Glasya-Labolas. Gratias tibi ago. Ave."

November 2 - November 6.

"Lord Marax, I honor Thee this day. Lend your presence and your grace to my life and take from me these humble offerings I lay aside in acknowledgment of your greatness. Bless me that I shall be firmly cemented into the foundation of my convictions and that I shall not falter in the face of adversity. Bless me that good spirits may surround and influence me. Bless me that I may find all which I seek. Hail, Lord Marax. Gratias tibi ago. Ave."

November 7 - 12.

"Lord Ronove, I honor Thee this day. Lend your presence and your grace to my life and take from me these humble offerings I lay aside in acknowledgement of your greatness. Bless me that I may see success in my endeavours, that I may earn the respect and admiration of those whose influences I desire to attain. Bless me that I may earn the favor of good spirits. Bless me that I should evermore be well-spoken and that I shall impress my mark favorably upon those with whom I converse. Bless me that I may ever seek and retain the Knowledge of all things both familiar and foreign to me. Bless me that I may attain understanding of those things which trouble me. Hail, Lord Ronove. Gratias tibi ago. Ave."

November 13 - 17.

"Lord Botis, I honor Thee this day. Lend your presence and your grace to my life and take from me these humble offerings I lay aside in acknowledgment of your greatness. Bless me that I may know those things which are kept from me, that I may see through the facades of those who wish to mislead me. Bless me that I may humble myself to confess when I have done wrong by another, that I may ask their forgiveness in sincerity and humility. Bless me that I may recognize my own fallibility. Bless me that I may ever clearly express that which I wish to communicate and that all my modes of communication remain unobstructed. Hail, Lord Botis. Gratias tibi ago. Ave."

November 18 - 22.

"Lord Bifrons, I honor Thee this day. Lend your presence and your grace to my life and take from me these humble offerings I lay aside in acknowledgment of your greatness. Bless me that I fear not my own mortality, that I recognize, in Death, the gentle transcending of the Veil. Bless me that I fear not change nor illness nor obstacle. Bless me that I gain and retain a gentle understanding of and appreciation for the Natural World and all of the lifeforms therein. Hail, Lord Bifrons. Gratias tibi ago. Ave."

Waiting

I have requested a familiar from Belial. I am waiting patiently for Him to fulfill my request.

Prayer

Praise be to Lord Botis for your abundant blessings this day. I thank you for your willingness to lend your energy to my purpose and I honor you in prayer and in offering. Hail, Lord Botis. Ave.

Well, Here I Am Again..

So I've not posted to this journal in a long time - and I figured that I would open it up again to the public and go ahead and make some entries - I have quite a few blogs to keep up with lol So here's to some happy blogging, I guess...

Not looking forward to tomorrow - going to the gastroenterologist to have a consultation and some more tests done for my Hep C. He will be talking to me about setting up a liver biopsy - can you say 'fun'? lol

I'm rather odd about blogging. I have blogs scattered all over the Internet and I don't use any of them regularly. I am a very paranoid person and so I tend to run from blog to blog when I feel vulnerable or insecure. I don't like having all of my thoughts in one place. I'm weird.

:'(

I should have suspected that I would go to bed feeling like this. This has been a crap day.

Weird Meh

Today has been a strange day - I have been having these violent and just...'mean'...thoughts about things. I dunno. I have had to work my ass off fixing on the chainsaw and now have to get up in the morning and cut some wood. Not only that, but I have put in a request for some fucking FOOD.

I had a frozen pizza today - it was old but it was edible. Heh.

I have therapy on Wednesday. I'm feeling a bit more anxious about this session - probably because I'm thinking that she's had time to form an impression of me and conclude, in our time apart, that I'm a worthless scumbag.

Energy Siphoning

I have decided to start doing something that I call 'energy-siphoning' to honor the Demons. Already, Glasya has impressed upon me that He would like to receive the energy produced from physical/emotional pain - and I feel that I could well do the same and siphon the various energies produced by different emotions/physical sensations to a Demon who would likely benefit from that particular form of energy.

For example, I was thinking today about how to rid myself of my anger besides just grounding, and it occurred to me that I could do well to siphon that energy off and direct it towards a Demon with qualities of action and/or destruction such as Amducious.

I might make a list of various energies and which Demons I would like to donate these to.